Wednesday, May 07, 2014
It's been 4 years or so since I stopped blogging, and the reason why I'm starting again because nobody visits this anymore and I can be as angst-y as I want without caring about how people are looking at me. This is something I can't do on Facebook. I don't want anyone to "like" my complaining statuses, or to comment and say, "How are you? WHY WHO WHAT WHEN WHERE?".

Recently, things happened. It's been 4 days after my birthday and been wanting to complain about it to nobody. Or rather, I just want to vent! For this year and the past 1 year, things been happening on my birthday. These THINGS happen because of this humongous crush I had for the past 2 years and 8 months (if I can detail the number of months I had this crush, it totally huge). I confessed before, but he rejected me, but I was still unable to give up. However, ever since last year, I wanted to give up and stop giving my attention to this guy (code name: J) as something happened. He almost hooked up with one of our mutual girl friend (code name: T) , and T was just plain crazy. As J and I had a bunch of mutual friends/clique, we hung out a lot. He was even my housemate! So it happened that approximately 2 weeks before my birthday, we went clubbing, and things happened. T got drunk and pretty much just pounced on J. After that night, things got awkward but to divert my unhappiness, I did tell some of my friends and tried to laugh it off. In the end, the supposedly gossip went back to T, and she confronted me, saying that I spread rumours or untruths about them (and nope, I didn't). So we had a huge quarrel on messages and she ended with "f*** you". Totally mature right? Anyway, T forced J to hang out with her during MY birthday by threatening suicide if J did not hang out with her. As I said earlier... crazy bit*h. Therefore, J did, and assured me that he didn't want to. End of story, because in the end, they didn't get together and I was secretly relieved.

Time passed, and I slowly gave up, and we stopped being housemates. We still hung out, and of course, I can't let it go completely. Then it happened again.

This year, somehow it happened again. This time J hooked up with another girl (code name: K), also while clubbing. Long story, but similar events happened. However, this time round they did hook up and they "announced" their relationship on the day of my birthday. I even celebrated the end of my birthday with K. This time round, I felt like I got slapped. What's the best way of telling a girl that you are totally not interested in her? Tell her you got a girlfriend on her birthday. FINE! I'm gonna let go. Or die trying.

And I know, he's just not into me. And so I say, "F**K YOU!"

Now, let me leave off with a long overdue music video.



P.S.: Now you know why I can't post this on FB yeah? too many mutual friends.

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